Good Bye 2011

I feel like only one good thing came out of 2011... Kynlee... She was by far the only good thing that came from 2011. And honestly I am okay with that. That means I can always think of 2011 as the year Kynlee was born and the wonderful moments of that.

2011 was such a blur. Being pregnant half the year then dealing with the after effects of having a baby the rest of the year. I was looking back at my pictures on my phone the other day and forgot so many of those moments we have had. I don't have good pregnancies and although Kynlee's seemed to be the best- its still that feeling of being pregnant, large. uncomfortable, depressed.... you name it I probably dealt with it.

After I had Kynlee I feel like mentally I went down hill. I really believe that I was dealing with postpartum depression. I quickly (and thankfully) got on meds. Which did wonders for a while and then just seemed to not work. I feel like I had no energy to do anything. I wanted to sleep all the time. I thought the problem was my medicine, so I called my doc asking if we could up it. So we did. it felt like it help for a day and then back to the same old problems. And on top of that all the meds made me gain about ten pounds. Which really they need to come up with medicine that doesn't make you gain weight, because when you are depressed the last thing you want to happen is gain weight. (in my opinion.)

I am just not sure that I can say I learned anything from 2011. It was a whirlwind of a year and one that I am happy to have over.


There is a lot I want to accomplish in 2012 (but we will save that for another post). But her are some great memories from 2011.

Thanks 2011 for bringing Kynlee into this world.

First hair cut

I cut Kynlee's hair today... it was driving me INSANE! She looked like she had a mullet in the back... so I took it off. That's all... but holy cow it looks like a lot.

The other two kids both had their first hair cuts around the same age also. So it not surprising for my kids.

I wish I would have taken a picture but I was the only one here... and I was cutting.

The one thing I can never stand about babies hair is that it doesn't grow out the same. I remember with Kloe it took her hair forever to be all the same length. And it still isn't all the same. The back always seems to grow faster.... and then you have the top and sides which always seem to be at awkward lengths... I just can't wait for Kynlees hair to be grown out some! :)

Hello 2012

I can not believe that 2012 is already here. I am excited to see what 2012 has in store for us.

That is the one word that I want to describe 2012. I don't really know what it is going to look like or what is going to happen. But I am kind of excited about it. I know I really want to simplify our home life. I feel that we are beyond blessed with the things we need and what we want. Maybe we can slim all that stuff down.

I also want to simplify my life as a mother. I feel sometimes that its just go go go go go and Mom, Mom, Mom... I want to learn to simplify my job as a house wife, cook, mother and friend so all those things aren't overwhelming.

I really don't have a plan. I just know that I want to take one day at a time and see where we are at the end.

What's your 2012 ideas, goals???

Kynlee Elaine Ronning

Kynlee Elaine Ronning

6.27.11 

6lbs 13oz 19inces

Even though we had a planned c-section she had to come on her own time just like the other two a little more than 2 weeks early. I had been having contractions all night. Chris went to sleep and I stayed awake. I decided to take a shower to see if that would help but it didn't help. After about an hour after showering they seemed to have calmed down (not stopped) but calmed enough for me to get a little sleep. The kids woke and I was still having them so we decided to go to the hospital. We packed the kids up and left. 

We got to the hospital and got all checked in... you know the whole nine yards.  My cervix was still shut. but I was contracting a lot. They started me on fluids to see if that would help... but it didn't help. If anything it made them worse. They called my OB who in my opinion was just wasting time until he got done with his patients. They then tried to give me 3 shots to stop my contractions. They did work for about twenty minutes and then the contractions started up again. At this point there was some change in my cervix. 

When my OB finally arrived he was prepared to go ahead with a csection. He didn't want to send my home and keep contracting and something happen with my previous c-section scars.  I was more than prepared to have her. So not to long after than I walked into the O.R. and was being prepared for my c-section. 

Sometime around I think it was 7:23, I remember looking at her as they were checking her out and thinking "she looks just like Caidan." She had dark brown hair. And I was already in love. She was my longest pregnancy and my smallest baby but man oh man did she steal my heart from the second she was born. 

I can't tell you how much I feel in love with her. I love my other two kids so very very much but the bond I have with Kynlee is just very different from the other two. 

Kynlee Elaine Ronning-

I can't wait to see you grow up and see all that God has for you. I hope you know that you have some big shoes to fill with being named after both your great-grandmas. You might never get the chance to meet one of them but know that she would have loved you SO much. And she would have told you how cute you are and given you tons of kisses. One day I will tell you anything you want to know about her. And I am sure daddy will tell you stories about Gammy. 

I have to apoligize now for all the noises that our house brings... but it is our family. Your brother and sister already love you A WHOLE bunch and I am sure that you will learn to love them too! :)

I am beyond blessed that God entrusted daddy and I to raise you. And I am so thankful that we get to be your parents. We love you more than I could ever tell you. 

Your Mom.

Like Father Like Son

This picture is scary because these two are like the same in one, but two very different people. Chris means the world to Caidan and I am not sure daddy could ever do anything wrong. I always let Caidan call him the nights Chris is gone and the minute Chris says "Hey Buddy" Caidan lights up. And it melts my heart. I could never have been blessed with a better person to be the father of our kids.

 

And well we can't forget this cute little girl.... Sometimes I wonder where she came from. (She told me she was watching Tangled in this picture... not sure if that's true or not... but on another not like her $1 pjs I got! Score for me... or Score for Kloe!)